I knew I would cry on my Last Founder’s Day, as I, for the last time as a student honored our dear Princess Bernice Pauahi Bishop. I wore my neatly ironed dress and white-out painted white pumps and stuffed my stomach with Mcdonalds. The last thing I wanted to feel for the next 3 hours was hungry, so I made sure to fully take care of that. We took a few pictures in the morning before my boarding the buses. Hugged the middle school teachers I ran into and watched my friends tear up as they were reunited with alumni that came back from college. We rehearsed for the last time, and Ceballos was a little antsy. Linked arms with a boy in my grade that I still to this day do not know his name. But he was nice, asked me if it’d be emotional and I told him it would, it was only his second founder’s day, it was my ninth. My pumps made it difficult for me to be in the procession but I jumped for joy when I got a little baby to walk with. His hands were stuffed in his pocket and I asked him if I could hold his hand and he held it out. Little did I realize it was actually my good friend’s younger brother, DEUCE! I joined the rest of my class and took my seat when everyone came in. The pule was nice, as was the speaking of the proverbs. “Remain forever indebted to her,” ended the statement of appreciation. We went about all of our songs, our boys with Nakolokolo started it and of course I melted it. I saw some of my friends start bawling as the little kids sang, Pauahiiiiiii laaaaaaaaaani nuuuuuuui, Pauahi nona ka leiiiiiiiiiii. I could feel the tears welling up, that is where I started. I was once a little baby wailing that song. I couldn’t help but want to cry my eyes out, and I did, but not as much as others. I was shaking when we sang Aloha Pauahi. It probably wasn’t that beautiful, but I could feel the mana. When we finished that it was over, our Last Founder’s Day was complete. We processed out and boarded the buses for Mauna Ala. Where it got even more emotional. Everyone was literally bawling their eyes out. When Kama started crying I couldn’t hold back the tears. I found my best friend and held her hand as we walked back to the buses. We had started this journey together 9 years ago and we were now in the process of ending it together. Founder’s day was done, which officially ended half of my senior year. How surreal. Princess Pauahi I can’t even express to you how much you mean to me. I can’t even begin to tell you how grateful I am for everything that you’ve given me. You are the reason I am where and who I am today. If not for the blessing of attending Kamehameha Schools in the 4th grade I don’t know who I’d be, or where I’d be for that matter. Since the 4th grade I’ve been so blessed to be a benefactor. And it wasn’t until this year that it really hit me how much you’ve given me over the last 9 years. It is because of you that I aspire to go to college and do something with my life and give back to you and Hawaii. Ke Ali’i Pauahi I am forever indebted to you. You changed my life in more ways than I can even begin to describe. Thank you for everything. Our beloved Princess, Happy Belated Birthday <3

Its surreal that today I technically completed half of my senior year. Today I took my last final of 2011, and half of senior year was complete. Its hard to think that I’ve only got half a year left to enjoy at Kamehameha Schools. Its hard to think that in 6 months I’ll be graduating, its scary really. Taking it one day at a time though, thats what I promised myself. Founder’s day and then its off to Christmas break. It’ll be quite an emotional Founder’s day…I know it. She’s given me so much to be thankful for the last 9 years. From being the babies singing “Pauahi nona ka lei” to the middle schoolers stating their appreciation and now finally to the Seniors singing “Aloha Pauahi” its gonna be emotional. Spent my morning talking to my bro about my accident and eating my neighbors present. Gave away a few of my Christmas gingerbreadmen. My classmate helped me through the whole english final, without him I would have failed. His kindness gives me hope. “It was a pleasure to have you in class Triple Threat, I hope you enjoyed this class,” is what Mr.V said as I left class, I would really miss his class actually it was much too fun and he’s a teacher I’ll probably never forget. My last final was my PE final and since I completed PE with my lanikai run all that was waiting for me was a 3 mile run. And by run I mean legitimate walk. We walked the whole thing except for where Ms.Chock saw us. Showered and the boys waited for us to drive. Could’ve gone to Kamshop but then remembered it was Slutty Secret Santa Giveaway at lunch. It was great to see all the presents and Christmas spirits. I love my friends and our genius ideas. I love the pillow pet and chocolates from my secret santa. And I’m glad they all loved their gifts. Lots of cookies and gingerbread. Its days like these that really just make me so appreciative. Founder’s day rehearsals after. I couldn’t shut up about how weird it felt to be sitting on the ground, we’re seniors…we made it. God its so surreal. I got to sit by some of my best friends. Unfortunately theres a group of boys that I’ve never talked to and never known their name and thats the group of boys that our row is paired up with to walk in…awks. Of all the groups it’d have to be a group of boys that I don’t know. I wish it could’ve been one of my long term guy friends…oh well. All for Pauahi. Spent the rest of the afternoon doing box talk and cruising in the trunk of my car until practice. Dropping like flies and Coach questions our commitment, I know where mine is…I can’t say the same for others. Deck the Halls at home with the family. And now I’ve got to leave for practice in about 10 minutes. FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!

Calling it early on the laptop today. I’ve got a whole half of my book still to read before I take my english final tomorrow, EEP. Last one of the semester, can’t fail it! Today was eventful, quite horrible…not going to lie. Wakeup call around 610 allowed for me to drop off the munchkins and then come back down to do a mcdonalds run. Pancakes for breakfast, wished Kumu a MerryChristmas & Happy New Year. Spent the rest of my morning playing MASH, bwahaha CLASSIC. Fourth I listened to Zab’s Punahou rap, pretty epic if you ask me. Spent the rest of 4th figuring out how to do Physic’s problems. Two hot dogs for lunch with peppermint oreos to top it all off. Off to my first final of the day, PHYSICS. Mr.Kamalu’s seatings actually made it easier for us help each other but our class still only scored at highest about 57/68. A C+ for the physics final, not too shabby? Oh well. And I thought my day was over after a comforting long hug. But it wasn’t. I was forced to ponder and second-guess a friendship as I drove home. Picked up some gingerbread decorations from Price Busters and got into a car accident. TRAUMA-FUCKING-TIZING. Holy shit, I definitely learned a lesson. Thank You God that nobody got hurt it was just the cars. Napped when I got home then read some before starting on the cookies. Thanks Ari for the cookie cutters yehbuddy. Neighborhood hangout with everyone being so concerned for me and my accident. But they were very nice about it. Shiges for dinner, YUM! Love the fried saimin. Showered and I will have my eyes glued to the Crystal Shard for the rest of the night. Night tumblr, last day of finals tomorrow and then its Christmas break…well after founder’s day that is.