Good Morning? Not so much. Held back tears as my mother lashed at me with words that stung, “Kahea you wanna know why you’re alone, its because your a bitch.” Hurt doesn’t begin to explain my emotions, she should know what I’m going through right now and that is not something I needed to hear. Dad & Mom seperately just came up to my room to take their second rounds with painful words, “its the truth,” they argue. Karma is out to get me, they threaten. Somehow I’ve become the villian and it is I who must apologize or grounding is my punshiment. The rain was coming down hard today, so hard that I didn’t leave my car until 730 with two jackets, one with the hood and the other thats waterproof. Sociology to start off the day, and I realized how much fun it would be to create my own school. Sup Bulleh from Ekolu before Ms.Fale’s realm. Finished my notes and zoned out for the rest of the period. No wonder I’m getting a C. Shoyu chicken for lunch after sprinting through the rain to get to Akahi. Toga girls looked spiffy when we traveled together. Claimed a bench, and snapped a few pics. The togas make us look like MAMMOUTHS. Physics problem set in homeroom while learning a country line dance for tomorrow’s wild west day. I didn’t completely fail my calculus test but there were some careless errors that could’ve saved my grade a bunch. Vinta’s to end the day and it almost seems pointless to read since I have my classmates anyways. Fat vent sesh at Jas’s today after school before chatting with the coaches at Keku. I’ve realized that I’m going to be letting alot of people down come the first day of tryouts because I’m not going to be the player they were hoping for. But that was the risk I took when I made social life a priority and not basketball. And now I’m sitting here stink and hungry because I refuse to leave my room because I don’t know what to say to my parents. Cool.

Strangers, again and maybe forever, or at least for a longtime. I can’t help but think that this all happened purposefully at the right time…now. Here we are as utter and complete strangers and theres absolutely no will power left in my body to do anything about it, much less any desire in your body to change that fact either. I guess to me its just sad, sad that we’re going to become strangers. Its sad that I’m finally going to let you slip into the label as someone I used to know. I don’t want you to become that but I feel like I’m being forced too. You’re letting me become someone you used to know, or maybe even don’t know it all. Please don’t let me become a stranger again..

Loud laughter is filling the room, its odd to me, spending a halloween night inside. But, I guess with age comes responsibility and somehow society has forced me to grow up and leave behind the celebrations that come with holidays like Halloween. Plus, the annual Ulahea Halloween party came a few days earlier, so all we have is food at a neighbor’s house. I woke up late today, seeing that I had a whole costume to throw on. When I finally got to school I was a little hesitant to leave the car and walk out but as soon as I did everyone knew who I was, SMURFETTE. And all day they assured me I look the part since my height helps with that. Morning pictures with all the cool costumes we had. DJ going in konia breezway and my favorite costume would defz have to be the ALL BLACKS rugby players, NICE. Next might be the lego people. Discovered I wasn’t the only smurf but it was cute to see how everyone had their own interpretation. Finished up Princess Bride in Vintas. Which led into more picture taking and homework avoiding during my free. Anu the Rambo, Payton the Zorro, Manaola the U MAD BRO, and Creepy eyes. Sociology notes led into a Teri Burger lunch with Superman & Glee girl. Got ripped so hard by my calculus test, like it almost wasn’t funny how bad I did. Quick copying in physics, Kealoha was Mallificent from Sleeping beauty & her dad a Penguin. I found it quite cute. Mrs.Fale dressed out for economics and I love how festive she is. Business management group picture and then fast decisions on what we have planned for the week. At 3o clock traffic was already starting to build up. Took a nap as soon as I got home and woke up to my heart beat imitating the creepy music surrounding my house, my crazy mother at work passing out candy. Now I’m furiously going through my college apps to get them in for early action (non-binding of course) and then I’ve got a chapter to read, notes to take and sleep to take part in. Tomorrow we’re taking it back in time. The past is a nice place to visit but not a good place to stay.